I thought maybe a post was in order as this blog, my website, indeed my life has changed a lot in June and I’m not exactly what to do with this page going forward.
For those that don’t know (and my one subscriber at this time, hi Emily) I have had a lot of jobs these past 4 years. About 2 years ago I left graphic design and became a custodian at the University of Michigan. Then this year I switched my second job from a simple stocker at a retail store to an inventory control clerk which is a much more mentally challenging job.
But overarching these last 4 years I was trying to build a business on Patreon offering spiritual coaching and mentoring. So yes, a side hustle aka a third job. And while it was more successful than I had hoped, it was not as successful as I needed. Yes, I helped quite a few people, something that I think/thought the Spirits wanted of me. Along with it of course came a cost. Time away from my home life and personal life which has affected my relationships. This came to a head in June as well. So with a job switch possible and a personal life I had been neglecting I made the change, as I would have advised any of my clients to do. I admit I have been feeling very anti-Christian given all the fascism that particular faith seems to be embracing, so it is a relief not to have to worry about who I might aggravate in the search for potential clients.
Combine this with a bunch of other new changes. I will be having major dental work a process started in June. I have been prescribed a CPAP, and I am getting used to that which is affecting my sleep.
But I guess overall this has led to a sort of identity crisis. I’ve been a public figure for over…20 years maybe? Who the hell am I? What do I even enjoy? I have a list of projects I want to work on, a shrine in the yard, learning Italian (who knows if we might have to flee this nation), maybe painting. I need to get some 5th edition books because the family has talked about a monthly D&D night. I also have started working on an original character cosplay for my TikTok channel, longer pieces of which might end up on my YouTube. I have to be careful there though, as my mind keep thinking about how to gain a following, not how to just make it fun for me.
What will this blog be though? Spiritually I have been inspired a lot recently by Six Ways: Approaches & Entries for Practical Magic
by Aidan Wachter, and his book really is just a collection of his blog posts. He uses the term “dirt sorcerer” which of late make more sense to me than shaman or even paqo. I want to make sure I try to do more personal practice, do I place that here?
Or maybe I review movie here, or the shows I am binge watching. Or some combination of all these things. Or maybe I will only post here every few months like I did before on journals. I guess we will find out.